I've actually been putting off writing about 2014. I'm just not in the mood maybe, or like, I really don't know what to say. I find myself catching up with my thoughts when I'm down and at a lost for words when I'm happy. Can we file that under #writerproblems? Haha. It's pretty obvious that I've been struggling to keep up this blog with my life as it's happening too fast and yeah, you guessed it, I'm having fun. But I'm challenging myself now to write about the good stuff. It's much better, isn't it, to write about what's good in your life. I like the fact that it's in me until I die or probably even after but it somehow makes a lot more sense when I write it down and share it.
In my 2013 yearender post, my end note was 'Happiness is a choice'. And that's exactly what I chose for 2014.
This blog and my Instagram are fully aware of how things happened this 2014. I was out a lot. I usually don't like going out during weekdays but I learned not to mind that. I mean, it's always nice to spend time with people who matter, though, I think I kind of went overboard, but again, I didn't really care. It is exhausting but at the same time feels good. No one remembers their days at the office. No one. Well, except for the good days but I'd choose the movie nights, tambay/coffee catch ups and concerts (I was at 3 concerts this 2014, ccchyeaaah!) over that any time.
Then there were my travels! It took my brothers, Chianne and I, almost a year to prep for our Indochina trip but it was worth it. I mean, come on, 4 countries in 10 days, that's something. Backpacking taught me a lot, as expected. It taught me to walk for how far just to save 2 dollars and appreciate my brothers and Chi more. It taught me though there's a language barrier, you can be understood with a smile and a simple nod. It taught me that the world is the home and that I should put more effort in to seeing it more. There was also the El Nido trip where it became evident that beautiful places are much more beautiful if you're with your friends. With traveling, I really believe that you can learn so much - of the places, the people and of yourself.
As for my yearly list of books and films, I was able to read 7 books and have watched 80 films for 2014. Honestly, those are bad numbers for me. I wanted to read and watch more but again, I was out a lot. Haha. I also became a part of something really cool and creative this year - BookBed. So far, I've written 3 articles for it and I'm excited to continue my part this 2015.
Like I said before, this is the life I've always wanted, this is the life people get jealous of, everything that's happening at the moment is meant to happen and 2014 made me live that life more.
So for work, well, I have no work now. I don't see it as a downer though. Yeah, I have to find another job and that can mean I'm back to square one but I'm kinda relieved on being laid off. Don't get me wrong, I loved being there and I miss Pat, Joyce and Ate Rox everyday. I can do whatever and whenever, but it has to, at least, fulfill me. That job wasn't really doing that anymore. It has been disheartening and have been all about the money. I am, however, so far, handling funemployment pretty well. I've done interviews and just taking my time.
As for the entirety of my friends, I feel like we're really growing up, though sometimes we question ourselves if we are really growing up. We're being adults, in a way, like as far as what what we've been through or what we're going through individually, it not foolishly easy anymore. Like with love, we would have conversations and experiences about it over and over and now, we're realizing that it's not just about that, but more on having a commitment to someone. Hell, some of them are even married now and having kids. It's sad in a way that a mom would say play time's over to a child but exciting cause maybe we're ready for the big things.
To my friends, thanks for growing up with me. The coming years may give us heaps of those big things but we all have each others' backs, that's for sure. I love you.
My family also experienced a huge change this year as my youngest brother went to Dubai for work. We are a very close-knit family and I think with Red leaving, of course it's sad but it just brought us all closer, you know, to compensate the space left behind. I am proud of him for taking that step. And proud of my whole family for going through this change still strong.
Mama, Papa, Gian and Red, I love you. Thanks for always believing in me. Thanks for always being there.
I'm really not a New Year's resolution type of a person but I was drunk last year when I made that post and have mentioned a couple of things. Just to recap...
1. I said I'll lessen my smoking. I did, kind of, but on the latter part of 2014 when I got sick so, mini check for that.
2. Lessen time on Facebook and Twitter. I think I did well on this one. I go online everyday, sure, but it's mostly to message my friends and that's it. So, check!
3. To love myself more. One fat check. I love myself. With how shit went down this 2014, it's pretty obvious.
4. Smile. I am proud to say that it has become a habit of mine to smile at people I'm meeting, I am with and even to people I secretly want to punch square in the mouth. Smiling is so good.
Yeah, I'm done with resolutions. Haha.
I want to go in to 2015 blind but very much willing to take in moments that are really for me. Like I said, I want to challenge myself, see what I am capable of. I want to take in responsibilities that maybe I should have taken long before. If I'm not strong enough, I want a moment where I can be stronger. Both in the mind and in the heart. I want moments to show how thoughtful I am now and moments to show me how much I can feel. I want moments. And I will create moments because there's no such thing as a life that's better than mine, so I must swim against the tide.
Maraming salamat, 2014! You were wonderful!
Let's get it on, 2015!
